Didn't expect to break what I last said.

It has been over a year since then. The resentment took this long to subside.

Seeing a reply on a friend's wall post made me thought about myself, and it made me reflected deeply on myself one day when I was on the way home.

Rather than be in control of my emotions, I had let my emotions get a hold on me many a times. Most strongly in '04 and '05, ended up lashing out at you for something stupid. It was ridiculously frustrating to not have SMSes answered when I just wanted to start small talk or after replying when asking for your PoV regarding that matter about 1 of my recruit having very much trouble trying to cope with BMT. Then somehow it came back again last year (the post before this) and that was the last straw, as the resentment was overbearing - made me really not wanting to have anything to do with you.

As mentioned, somehow all it took was just that 1 post on Facebook to make me reflected on myself - which brings me forth to writing this post.

Because of everything, I must have come across as giving a very bad impression of myself. I failed to keep a check on my emotions and done very stupid things. Things which was never your fault to begin with - and still you decided to be the better person by apologising, and by behaving rashly, must have caused you want to get away from me out of fear or something. For everything I have done, I am sorry to have caused you all these troubles for so many years. I became a person that I did not want to have become towards you.

Even having said that however, I believe the damage I had done is too great that it is irreversible. Ultimately I believe our ties is best kept this way so that we can move on.

If you have read this post (I hope you know who you are), all I ask for is your forgiveness and a discrete acknowledge somehow.

My mind and heart is now at peace. Let this blog remain a lesson for myself to remind myself to keep myself in line.